An hour in front of the grand mioror in the liveing telling me myself that to day will be fine like I have for the past two days. Mom is gone just like any other morning.My eyes are red from crying so much seeing him again would kill me.My freinds have left me alone not knowing what is wroung. My daddy wondering but dosn't ask. He said he would let me decide to end it or not.I wonder what would have hapend if I would have stayed. Would it be me under his arm instead of her. My hart is brocken why did he hert me like this he promesed not to. I know that I'll be ok soon but time heals wonds but it hapens slowly.
December 4, 2009