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I Won't Hesitate (I Swear)

December 2, 2009
By Anonymous

I'm waiting for someone
to ease this pain
to stop my heart in this darkened rain
I'm waiting for anyone
to take the blood away
i'm sick of them, i just
want to die today
I'm just waiting here
in their wasted hearts
where nobody cares
and darkness plays my part
I'm still waiting for you
to watch me run and hide
just until suicide.

All these lies,
and I'm stll waiting.
What's this pain i
feel...
I'm not here, I'm not
real...

Why can't anyone else
see this bruise...

Nothing no longer
matters...
Find my love to make it
better...

Soon i'll find myself,
consumed in abstract thoughts
with deep, fresh cuts
and the gun to my mouth.

And I'm still waiting here.
Just waiting.
For someone to stop me..
but all is silent.
So why hesitate?...


The author's comments:
a poem i wrote when i was going through a really though depression and had problems with self destruction.

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on Aug. 9 2011 at 5:25 pm
secrets_of_silence GOLD, Gisborne, Other
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Favorite Quote:
life had i loved the more
had it but passed away
as quietly as the day
ebbs from the darkening star.


-emanuel litvinoff

nnggwwww. i would give you a hug..... but my complements will have to do. you managed to convey clearly a pain which is factual and honest while not over exagerating or dissolving into over used cliches. well done