You Were My First Friend This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

October 13, 2009
You were my first friend
And I kept you up nightly knowing
Your grumbles meant nothing
Because discussing the Big Bang
In four-year-old wording, you sounded excited
The man-made twinkles on our ceiling suspiciously resembling
The stars we pondered over our Lion King comforters.
I never believed in reincarnation, but
Expressing that led us to the invention of my
Trademark Deep Conversation; for
Elated and fresh-faced, I lived for the quiet we
Filled with naive hypotheses.
We did not stop at Darwin, concocting elaborate ways to
Make it to our father's office across the hall without
Mother stumbling from her bedroom, the scolding insomniac
Beauty still defying dark circles.
I was always the decoy, still am, as you play the grown boy
Doing great things that require departure from your old innovation, your
Place in the hierarchy evident as you bid us all good-bye, your flights to
Maryland, Japan, Jupiter. Though your ­testosterone builds a foggy wall between us these days, I hope, in our yearly great conversation, you
Tell me what it feels like to skate on the rings.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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This article has 3 comments. Post your own now! said...
Mar. 30, 2010 at 9:52 pm
(&& we were supposed to live next door to each other in hawaii, and get matching tattoos.) - immensley bittersweet and relatable. sad to lose a connection, peace in getting to keep the memories. <3.
Lonleydandy said...
Jan. 14, 2010 at 3:53 pm
It was really sweet. I can tell what it meant to you.
Hope-in-life said...
Jan. 10, 2010 at 1:02 am
I really enjoyed this, it was moving and to be honest it intrigued me very much to read the conversations that were brought up, lastly if it was a brother or sister that was leaving or even just a dear friend i wish them a happy departure into the great unknown please post more id love to read your thoughts.
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