Your doing it again. You said you had quit. I believed you. Why are you doing this to me? I believed you when you said you would stop. I believed you the first, second, and the thrid time. I kept giving you another chance, that was my mistake. Your messing up your life and mine. You dont even see it do you? Your all I can think about lately, about how your killing yourself, about how i might lose you. I feel trapped in a nightmare. I want to wake up but the nightmare never ends. Its reality, but I dont want to face the truth. I dont want to watch your life fall apart into nothing. I dont want to see you dissapear. I was suppose to be able to look up to you. How can I do that when I know what your doing is wrong? If you were to die tomorrow I would be mad and upset. You would care then. If you could see how much your hurting me you would quit. You would finaly see what I have been trying to tell you all along. Even when no one else does, I will still love you.
My Hidden Pain
October 18, 2009