Hearts Do Not Listen

October 2, 2009
I saw him that one day, in history class,
And I fell head over heels in love with him
A brand new roller coaster I had never ridden before

The roller coaster crashed and I flew out of my seat
I fell to the ground, damaged and ruined
Broken beyond repair

No one and nothing will be able to fix me
To sew my heart together again
Or to cure my misery, my heartbroken sadness

He remains in my heart, in my mind,
In every crevice of my skin, in every word spoken
And I cannot rid of him no matter how hard I try

I strive to forget him, to move on, to let go
But my heart is saying telling me different,
To remember, to stay put, to hold on

The memories hold some joy, but the happiness only lasts
For a few seconds before reality smacks me in the face again
Telling me that things will never be that way again

Being strong is important to me,
Because I’ve always been the weak one, the pathetic one
But being strong is harder than it looks

To be strong, I have to have no concern for him
I cannot feel anything towards him at all
No love, no hate, I just have to stop caring

But three years of loving someone, cherishing someone,
Having friendship with someone,
And then going straight to neglecting
is a hard thing to do

And I do not succeed with my efforts of dismissing my thoughts
He settles into my soul, into my heart,
Never to be removed,
Never to be forgotten

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aleelee This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 15, 2009 at 10:04 am
im sorry, i messed up on the 5th stanza, second line it should be "But my heart is telling me different"
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