The pale flower beside me starts to blossom

I feel you push up behind me

Hugging me so tightly

I could feel my pain squeezed away

As we lay on the picnic blanket

Falling into each other and looking up

The stars shine brighter

Now that I’m looking at them with you

Your hand interlocks with mine

I am embracing this moment of happiness

Because I don’t get it too often

I’ve been depressed

Shattered and broken

But you didn’t mind

You picked up my pieces

And built me a castle of glass

I feel like the princess in the movie

That has been through hardships fear

And so many battles

But you spin me around my walls

Telling me I’m the prettiest of them all

And that you will never leave my side

I look over at the flower

And it has fully blossomed into a perfect rose

You spun me round and round

But then it got too fast

You spun me so hard

I fell into a piece of glass

Breaking down my walls once more

More than it was broken before

You leave without a simple goodbye

Turn away like you didn’t promise me

Endless love, the future, or fun prom nights

I believed in you but now I’m alone

Leaving you to feed your greed

While I find a place to rest

But I should’ve known better

the flower looked too beautiful, too perfect

And now I’m here in the universe

The shadow of the day casts over me

While my ocean tears streaming down my face

bleeds into the sky

I’m burning in the fires of a thousand suns

Wishing I was smarter, knew better, and stronger

Wishing it wasn’t like the past three times

Wishing I wasn’t feeling unworthy of love, care, and compassion

In the end, it doesn’t even matter

Because I look over to my left

I realized that the flower was never there at all

You were a distraction

From my self

It wasn’t you that I was crying about

I am crying about me

I am the person with the walls

The depression and the struggles

You were simply a minor inconvenience

That makes my real problems come

out to play.