Someone put rocks inside my chest

And I can’t seem to take them out

I didn’t see anyone put them there 

But it was deliberate, no doubt 

At first it was nothing more

Than a slight pressure on my shoulders 

But soon that pressure built and built

Till the pebbles were as big as boulders 

Now I’m left with this sinking feeling 

That I’m utterly unable to shake 

My mind is filling fast with grief

A nightmare from which I can’t wake 

Desperate to find the culprit

I examine the faces around me

But instead I note the expressions they wear

so unbothered, so carefree 

I’m suddenly reminded of my past self

Who was so much like these souls

When did I become this empty mass?

When did I relinquish control? 

I wonder what set this in motion

What led to my sudden downfall

Has this been happening all along?

Maybe it’s not so sudden at all?

As I feel the weight piling on me

I slowly fall to my knees

Desperate for relief from this pure agony 

I quietly whisper, please

At the same time, I’m feeling everything

But my mind is utterly numb 

A deep depression is setting in

To which I worry I will succumb 

I’m juggling the rocks, standing on one foot

But I seem to be losing my grip

I fear that if the rocks keep piling up

This sea will envelop my ship

My worst fears fade into reality

As I plunge into the ocean below 

The frozen wasteland welcomes me

And the water waves hello 

I’m drowning in a sea of sorrow

But I can’t swim because of the rocks

It seems I’ve been unwillingly put

In a tiny restricting box 

As bones crack and my lungs collapse, 

My heart rate starts to slow

Soon my breathing will come to a stop

And into oblivion I go

As I sink to the bottom into the sand

The crashing waves are further away

The silence brings a violent peace

That gives me reason to stay 

Hit all at once by the danger I’m in

I fight against the current towards shore

But the rocks and the current work in unison

To ensure that I lose this war 

Someone put rocks inside my chest

There’s only one person it could be 

 I’ve finally come to the understanding

That the one responsible is me