i wasn’t in love with you

i was in love with the fairytales 

fairytales i created when i saw

your eyes shine 

and your lips curl up into a smile as sharp as your eyeliner 

i fell for the ideas i planted into my own head 

including the idea

that you loved me the same way 

i spent ages convincing myself 

that this was all my fault 

me.

me.

me.

me. 

but you, 

youre also at fault 

because you never stopped me 

you fed into these fairytales 

giving me a false sense of security 

only to shatter it in the end 

let be clear 

i wasn’t in love with you;

although you let believe i was 

and im sorry to tell you 

but i’m a big kid now 

and i don’t believe in fairytales anymore