You said i was safe that the monsters hiding under my shallow bed

Don’t get good kids

Mama what did i do  wrong i prayed for the forgiveness never given it to the rich kids

Because grandma never got to puru after all

Mama is it true that your prayers get answered with the grace of god

That you have touched his hand

Do you know me

Mama no one cares anymore im apart of the forgotten ones

I have been sucked down like an ant in quicksand

Mama you covered my eyes as we watched scary movies at home

You never told me that when i get old you can't cover my eyes anymore

You did sit me down and explain that nothing will be the same anymore

You said i threw applesauce on the walls when i was small

Why didnt i listen when you said to turn my night light on

I was lucky that roy moore didn't get me after all

You warned me of the men who will talk down to me

Because they have no other way to feel powerful

Who knew that  i knew him all along

Remember in sixth grade when the boy i did date dumped me with a bright orange sticky note on my locker

I never did tell you that i wrote my name really pretty on your flowered paper

And hung it on my locker

Mama those girls called me names

Said i was a freak

Mama they threw things at me

Mama i will never be the same

Do you remember when i told you i didn't like middle school after all

Came home with tears and screamed at it all

Because somehow it was God's fault

Mama you handed me two dollars and my keys

And told me it was time for me to take the bus

I didn't know what you meant until i started walking

Mama you told me that boys are dumb

I might give you that one

Because right now i dont feel strong i feel small

Sometimes i dont feel pretty or

smart

mama sometimes this seems wrong

This doesn't seem fair

Because i care about it all

Mama are you scared