I sometimes wonder why I am alive  
I ask God why I ever survived  
He says that I matter  
But really I don’t know  
I wish that I could disappear  
Like really Lord why am I here  
Just tell me, tell me please  
I want to know why You put me in these things 
My friends say they love me when they go to bed  
But instead of believing them I fill my head  
What if I didn’t go to school?  
Would they notice?  
Will I ever be cool?  
 
Depression is a big thing these days  
People wonder why  
I just sit here and want to cry  
There is school, family, and friends 
How do people smile  
What do they know that I don’t  
Please tell me your secret   
I am last, gone, and no one knows 
Please show me the way  
So I can know  
 
I learn about Jesus  
Okay  
Well he died on the cross for you and me  
I still don’t get it  
He made you and is waiting for you to want to understand  
I do  
No you don’t  
Please explain  
These are the conversations in my mind  
My head is confused, I know its lame  
He wants me to have Him be a priority  
I try and trust Him 
The bible sounds confusing is there not more to life.   
 
I go to church  
And I understand  
But then comes Monday,  
and it's all gone again 
I just want to know Lord  
What should I do? 
You tell me to read the Bible and I really do try 
But sometimes I wonder if it is all a lie  
I go to church almost every week  
Lord why doesn’t t make sense to me  
I study real hard and still get Cs  
Why Lord, Why would you ever pick me  
I go to bed crying most night  
I pray, but it doesn’t go away  
I sit here and wonder all these things  
But really I known that He truly loves me.