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Healing

January 31, 2017
By juniormint GOLD, Manassas, Virginia
juniormint GOLD, Manassas, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
Don't change so people will like you. Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.


I reflect on the years before I found,

That it'd been in your words that I drowned.

Ignorance certainly was not bliss,

But then again, neither is this.

 

Enlightenment has made me strong,

I realize now that you were wrong.

But this knowing also brings me pain,

And fear that you'll hurt me again.

 

There's darkness etched into my soul,

In the place your words ripped a hole.

It'll always be there now,

A part of me I have to avow.

 

Sometimes it eats away at me,

When I think back on the memories,

Of me being blamed and shamed by you,

Leaving cracks and fissures. What did I do?

 

I walked on eggshells, cringing each time,

I said something wrong, commited a crime.

A facial expression, a certain tone,

Could set you off. How could I have known?

 

You say you've changed, but I'm still scared,

Just a little girl hugging her stuffed bear.

I was innocent, I now realize,

I did not put the anger in your eyes.

 

Something happened to you, I don't know what,

But it hardened your heart and into me you cut.

Now I am left to stitch up the wounds,

To hope that the torture never resumes.

 

I've backed away slowly from your toxic breadth,

And examined my lesions and scars in-depth.

No longer trapped by your accusations,

I can think for myself, without your negation.

 

I'm putting on my sword and shield,

To protect my self in life's battlefield.

For the burden you gave me has dissolved,

And into an indomitable spirit, I have evolved.


The author's comments:

I had no idea that I was being abused, I thought I was being treated normally. I thought it was me who was the crazy one, overreacting as I was being waterboarded by the one I thought should love me the most. This is for my fellow inmates, hopefully now freed from the burdening chains of abuse.


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DuckLover GOLD said...
on Feb. 14 2017 at 10:49 pm
DuckLover GOLD, Winchester, Kentucky
11 articles 0 photos 43 comments

Favorite Quote:
Be happy, not because everything you see is good, but because you can see the good in everything.

Woah! So deep! A lot of meaning in this poetry piece.


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