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Daddy I Miss You

September 4, 2009
By Malia BRONZE, Birmingham, Other
Malia BRONZE, Birmingham, Other
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I wake up to an unfamiliar surrounding
Your absence has changed everything
“You're not here daddy, you're out of sight”
“You’re not here daddy and nothing’s right”
I long to hear the sound of your voice
I'm stuck with a photo of you and no choice

I lye awake in the middle of the night
It's a nightmare struggling through this plight
I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight
The happy memories I try to fight
Suddenly I smell your presence
And my happiness is immense
But this blissful feeling is ripped away
Today is just like every other day
As I realise it’s only your crisp white shirt I’m holding tight
A tear trickled down my cheek as I whispered “Goodnight”

Life without you continued this way
The pain eventually faded away
For years you were far from my touch
Your absence was not felt much
You left me as a child broken
I was grief-stricken with words unspoken
I don’t know who I am without you
I’m incomplete “daddy”, if only you knew
This empty void has been with me too long
When you came back into my life after so long
Having to carry on felt wrong
I won’t let you make me unhappy
Because you’re no longer my “daddy”

I continued to strive for happiness
On my pursuit of ending this emptiness
Unknowingly I searched for fatherly qualities in other men
I look back to see how reckless I was then
To them, I grew so emotionally attached
And this feeling I never wanted to dispatch
A father figure is what I was seeking
Without you there’s something missing
I’m constantly feeling inadequate even to this day
Love, Care & Support was all you had to pay
But you never bothered to be near
Not having you in my life caused me to veer
I find myself veering; I’m lost


The author's comments:
This poem is about a helpless four year old girl who longs for her father's presence after he walks out on her. Then as the poem progresses it shifts forward into the present tense where she has kept strong without having a father figure and escalates into deep anger when her feelings towards her father fluctuate intensely.

I wrote this through my personal experience of how not having a father figure affected me at times. There comes a point in your life when you're reminded that you're missing that one parent and it hits you hard. No matter how many mistakes they’ve made and no matter how much they have hurt you. You wish they could change.

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Zara said...
on Jul. 31 2011 at 12:29 pm
This is simply AMAZING! WOW!

on Jul. 24 2011 at 9:04 am
e.nadeem PLATINUM, Karachi, Other
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I really like this!

Malia BRONZE said...
on Jul. 3 2011 at 4:59 pm
Malia BRONZE, Birmingham, Other
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I didn't make the last sentence rhyme to cause an abrupt ending.

Malia BRONZE said...
on Jul. 3 2011 at 4:57 pm
Malia BRONZE, Birmingham, Other
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I didn't make the last sentence rhyme to cause an abrupt ending.

on Jul. 2 2011 at 10:01 pm
Mrzcheekerz BRONZE, Jacksonville, Florida
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i loved it... the rhyme sceme was easy to follow without having the poem seem overly childish but the last part left me wanting more... why'd you drop the last rhyme

on Jul. 2 2011 at 6:47 am
Natasha Tremain BRONZE, Elermore Vale, Other
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a beautiful poem...

on Jun. 10 2011 at 5:54 pm
RanaHewezi1998 SILVER, Ames, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I've ended up where I needed to be."
-Douglas Adams

that was so beautiful i almost cried! im sorry u didn't have a father while growing up :'(

inkflowerKNC said...
on Jun. 10 2011 at 2:29 pm
inkflowerKNC, Townsend, Delaware
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Favorite Quote:
"When at first you don't succeed, try, try again."

that was so cute. it makes sense that this poem is #1.

on May. 20 2011 at 4:36 pm
TinMusic BRONZE, Hubbard, Oregon
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that is very touching i really brought it to the heart it was like my life story thank you so much for writing this

J.P. said...
on May. 19 2011 at 2:37 pm
Keep writing, I love your poems

sabyy said...
on May. 19 2011 at 9:03 am
sabyy, Richmond, Kentucky
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i think that this poem is really good. i know how you feel my dad was never around neither and yes it does hurt sometimes.

on Apr. 27 2011 at 2:45 pm
Squitchy96 SILVER, Mmuskogee, Oklahoma
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Favorite Quote:
Carpe Dium.

that would make my friend cry, it did make me cry :'( its good though

bbeast BRONZE said...
on Apr. 27 2011 at 10:18 am
bbeast BRONZE, Anaconda, Montana
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Favorite Quote:
“I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.” ~Henry David Thoreau

I think you should feel out the situation. Don't do anything that will make you feel uncomfortable. You don't know him anymore, and he doesn't know you, so treat him like someone you just met that you'd like to know. Maybe you'll have a good relationship, and maybe you won't, but if he'll be there for you, than that's one more person on your side if you ever need help.

You're lucky really. My dad left me before I was born, and only saw me once as a small child. He has never attempted to re-enter my life. Everyone deserves a second chance, but it's good to be wary.

Good Luck!


Myeshia BRONZE said...
on Apr. 27 2011 at 9:29 am
Myeshia BRONZE, Sanford, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"Never know what you got till its gone"

just remember hes always gonna be ther in spirit !

Ann314 SILVER said...
on Apr. 19 2011 at 10:11 pm
Ann314 SILVER, Santa Cruz, California
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Favorite Quote:
\\\"the truth is everyone is going to hurt you,you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for\\\"-Bob Marley

I can relate my Dad's never been around

Lahari GOLD said...
on Apr. 5 2011 at 3:16 pm
Lahari GOLD, Edison, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
\\\\\\\"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That\\\\\\\'s why its called the present.\\\\\\\"
— Eleanor Roosevelt

\\\\\\\"When life gives you lemons, make grape juice. Then sit back and watch as the world wonders how you did it.\\\\\\\'

He doesn't deserve a chance, he doesn't deserve your love. When a person leaves you when your mother died and barely calls, he's not worth it. 

on Apr. 5 2011 at 12:41 pm
WaterGirl23 BRONZE, Nutley, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
"Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." -William Shakespeare

i can not relate to your experience, but i know they feeling of being abandoned. this is beautifully written & i love it. please keep writing :)

on Apr. 5 2011 at 7:40 am
BeautifulSkye PLATINUM, Mansfield, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
you cant live with them... you cant live without them.

that was to dezzyskittles

 


on Apr. 5 2011 at 7:39 am
BeautifulSkye PLATINUM, Mansfield, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
you cant live with them... you cant live without them.

i think you should give him a chance because alot of people dont get to ever meet one of thier parent my friend recently heard something about his dad only to find out he has cancer

 


on Mar. 14 2011 at 8:27 pm
dolphin13 BRONZE, North St. Paul, Minnesota
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I think you should give him a chance because he realizes he wants to start over. He realizes his relationship with you is not right. It will be hard, but give him a chance.