Unaffected

-K.L. 

I left you broken, hollow and empty,
Still loving you
As I’d never dreamed of before.

Now we sit across from one another
As I fight my urges to reach for your hand,
Pull you closer,
And smother you the way
I’ve always wanted to.

I daydream of you,
Your lips,
And the way you used to smile at me.

I replay the memories of us
Before that dreadful day;
As I still have the lingering,
But ever so present
Bittersweet taste in my mouth.

I took your criticism and heeded your words;
Oh, your words.
Stinging, painfully, like needles
Within my chest.
And reminding me of that pain as if it were a song
On a 24/7 loop.

While I cried,
You thought me mental
As you stood and carried on,
Unaffected.