Happy


When its light out side the heart is light

When it's dark the heart is heavy...
Sometimes that's a good thing
To focus on the bad and tune out the rest
To turn the lights off and stare into the darkness; of the world, of a
day, of my life and see it for what it truly is
To see the sounds of the night
And here the repetitive beating of the loved heart next to you
Then to listen to the lifeless echo my own heart and here the
loneliness that resides in the place of happiness
To go through the day with out a care come to mind, and a plentiful bag of
friends to choose from
And my day, spent lonely and friendless, wondering if that perfect
someone will ask the question I’ve been longing to here
Eating lunch alone, and all my free time spent in the library,
studying the fashion magazines, hoping some will notice the outfit I
try to comprise with my secondary, look-alike clothes, and fake
plastic, hand-me-down jewelry
To go home and video chat with your long-distance oh so perfect
college boyfriend
While I spend my time expressing to everyone how happy I am. While
inside, I am suffering from the loneliness and disappointments of my
life and being alone
It's ok, I have the darkness, which takes me to a place I can never
live, erases the pain and sorrow of the day
And comforts me, it's my darkness and I will never let the fake
florescent light of your life in
I'm happy
Just me…and my darkness