After that big lie
My illusiones broke.
I can’t go back,
To the fights, lies and broken illusions.
I had a part in the torment.
I caused the fights with my jealousy.
But he started the lies,
That ended with my illusions and his promises.
“ I’ll never leave. “
“ I’ll always be here for you.”
“ I could never stop talking to you.”
Going from talking everyday,
To talking every other day,
To talking every other week,
To talking once a month,
Our relationship was the best,
According to what everyone said
“ I would like a relationship like yours.”
“ You guys are so happy together.”
But only you and I know the truth.
Our relationship was pure torment.
We hurt each other.
Things were said,
That weren’t meant to be said.
We did things,
That weren’t supposed to be done.
I don’t know about you,
But I would cry to myself,
I really did love you.
I couldn’t believe that my illusions were broken,
I wanted to be with you.
But my illusion of
Having a “happily ever after”
Was crushed with your biggest lie
“ I love you, princess.”
But you didn’t care,
That my jealousy was because,
You weren’t there for me,
When I most needed it.
You didn’t care lying to me.
You didn’t care leaving.
You didn’t care about my illusions,
Of having a “happily ever after.”
So I won’t care about you,
No more, no matter where you are.
But guess what?
“I will always love you because you’re my dad.”