Confliction

I feel your presence,
You’re all around me,
I struggle to make sense,
But my two halves disagree.

Is this what I must be?
Is this all I am?
My minds under siege,
You’re just a battering ram.

Darling, you’re perfect,
And beautiful too,
But I’m just wrecked,
And so unlike you.

I long for those nights,
As much as I shouldn’t,
I ran from the lights,
Till the day that I couldn’t.