day by dya i try to avoid eating. i try not to tell myself im hungry, but for him this disorder si worth defeating. usuallt id watch everyone fill themselves with fat as they turn their backs, and then i am alone. he stays with me thugh and makes me feel grat about my body and suddenly i feel amazing and im no longer going through it on my own. going throguh type 1 ED is hard and thats a fact and usually youd sit in silence. you'd give up anything for that. ED is usually your only friend so you thing. but now i have him to help me through. some days i dont want to get over it. i dont want any help for what i do. mirrors terrify me. i dont respect or like anything about the reflection i see. i can do this, i will do this because he is everything to me. i will learn to love myself. i will except me for me.
food fighting...the ED
March 13, 2009