I played hard to get

Until he was hard to forget
Optimistic our hearts would ever pair like a duet
Though evidently, I had the wrong mindset
When thinking he’d love me without the sex.

My mother always told me love could wait
That I’d meet my soulmate by fate
And guys will only increase the world’s birth rate
But the way he looked at me made me contemplate
If only I'd known heart break would await

“I really like you.” is what he'd say
His words sweetly burned my heart and I didn't own an ashtray
He knew what his words would weigh
Especially when he looked me in my face & told me he was here to stay
Maybe that's when it became so hard for me to walk away

He started to lie
But I let it fly
Because he always had stratified
Some damn good alibis
So now trusting just petrifies

To him I was “always over reacting”
And I didn't have to worry about the women he'd been attracting
He said I was already too distracting
Because my beauty was so impacting
I always replied with, “I just hope it's the women you're subtracting.”
Why didn't he notice it was true love we'd been slacking?

I watched my mother & father love each other unconditionally
They worked together like a 2 man ran industry
With my parents there was no Tiffany,
Just her consistently
So his and my love felt like an act of complicity

As a resolution we promised to get to know each other
If lucky, better than some blood brothers
But his feelings were smothered,
Mine, hard to discover
For crying out loud we just didn't belong together

I started acting distant
Because I felt his love wasn't sufficient
Though ironically, he stayed persistent
Always at my hip like a dental assistant
So when I got lonely the thought of him was always consistent

For your love, I should've never had to guess
Said you needed a break like this was school & you were longing recess
When it comes to my heart I don't know why I gave you access
your lies just brought stress
And I was truth obsessed
But those lies, I knew you'd never confess

My mother told me this would hurt
Even warned me about the young flirts
Temporary love is no dessert
I wish my consequence for ignoring the alert
Wouldn't have had to have been being treated like dirt

But I won't blame you
Because I played part in this too
Like a kid’s gym shoe
Nothing with forever be
Brand new
Your love was just too overdue

Next time I’ll think twice before
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          G off of my cliff of vanity
Into your ocean of fake love and selfish humanity
Next time I'll save my sanity