Buried alive and it starts to sink in, your deepest fears are coming alive again. It's hard to breathe and you begin to choke, hoping it's all just a sick, sick joke. Once you see that it is all real your life will be over, you can not be healed. You begin to think how can this happen to you, where you really that bad what can you do? Maybe you should say sorry for all that you did, or maybe you should ask them all to forgive. Well, just know none of it will work it's too late to apologize for being a jerk. You might as well get over it it's the hand you were dealt. It's the feeling you'll always feel, the feeling you've always felt.
March 13, 2009