Suffering

By , Lawrence, KS
You laughed and seemed so gentle
You smiled and gave me hugs
You said I could trust
You were so nice and kind.
Nothing seemed to go wrong
Days passing by

I smelled it on your breath
You let it intoxicate your body
Take control of your mind
You let it harm yourself, why?
You never though
What it, what you could do
Harsh words spilled
Shouting angrier than thunder
Hitting walls and doors
The violence shining in your eyes
You expressed love
And crushed it just the same
Burning it to dust

I felt numb inside
Tears spilling throughout
The never ending time

This went on
For many months
You never stopped
But when you saw
What it did
It was already too late
You said it would stop
Making a promise
But lying

Dirty names continued
The destroyed feelings remain
No one could help me

I still feel it deep inside
Even though it's been a while
You act as if nothing happened
But you lost my trust

Now that I don't see you
Slowly I am healing
From this deadly wound
Every time I see you
It reminds me of the pain
The wound cutting deeper

I let you know
I have friends that care
Friends that love me
Friends that try to help

But no matter how,
I try to forget
The pain
The numb feeling stays
Yes you see me laugh
I make it look
As if I am fine
But deep inside
I try to hide
The vicious wound within

I hide it all away
So hard do I try
To erase them and you
Unsuccessful however
You still come back
Fueling these bone breaking
Heart piercing emotions

Late at night
I still remember
That last day
You were here.
How you left,
How it ended.

Time flashed by too fast
The scene so clear
It will always last
I am afraid inside
But I know it may stay
And never go away

However
I learned something knew
All about you
It helps me cope
Just maybe someday
I will look back
On what happened to me
But one thing I'm not sure
That I can ever do
Is forgive you.





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psycholinzmeier said...
Mar. 21, 2009 at 8:36 pm
great poem something like tht happened to me just not so suvior forgeting and forgiveing is the hardest part. keep writing :)
 
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