i cant feel my chest any more...
my heart is cold
our love has died...
burning into ashes in my heart...
and my heart black and cold...
i regret our love...
why did i let you hurt me...
why did you have to leave...
trust me i dont know anything, i am blind...
i stood at your grave yesterday, i started to plunge the knife into my heart ....
but couldnt, i was to weak,
your name on my tonque,
i cried....
your name and wept.
and i stepped into shadow living at half speed half life half hearted...
i am a shadow, ghost...
i blame you...
i hate, hate, hate, myself...
i love you, your gone...
and so is the sun...
and the sea of my soul froze over...
the shore is cold and the sand fills my heart and dust suffocates my lungs...
i cant breath,
goodby...
my love,
why...
"f***...."
your grave mocks me...
the black rose clutched in my hand,
the thorns piercing my skin...
a drp of my blood falls into space and falls on your spirit in a nether realm, across stars, beyond galaxies, into hell, heaven?
i think,
"sleep peacefully"
but into my mind creeps your words and your touch and your breath warm and wet on my skin...
phantom...
eptoplasmic,
ghosts commune at midnight, ghost living , ghost dead...
ghosts together...
drawn towards each together towards unholy matrimony in the soft moonlight...