I Ache

My hands ache to write
Each of my fingers ache to write
My arms ache to write
As I take a breath, my chest aches to write
With every beat, my heart aches to write
but nothing can be expressed
my mouth isn't able to form words
my hands aren't able to process the thoughts
all that comes out is a jumble of nothingness,
filler words.
all of these thoughts stream through my body,
aching to be let free.
but then the paper comes out
and the thoughts scatter,
fearful to be awakened.
my soul heaves as the emotions grow.
how can i express this?
I ache to write.