If I let you in --

I can see it in your eyes --

You will break my heart open,

Splatter its blood

All over the walls

Meant to protect me.



I can see how motionless I'll sit,

Half-dead,

The only movement left being

My veins pulsing in vibrant life,

Pushing blood out of the

Fist-sized hole in my chest.

Until you push me down

And close my glazed-over eyes

I'll stay, staring, as my

Insides drip down the walls

In slow motion,

Pausing to gather in pools on the

Tops of picture frames.



I still love you,

Even though you could

Do this to me,

So I avoid contact with

Your guileless eyes

And love you in silence

From behind these iron gates.