Alone in a crowd, don’t speak
Is it because I’m special? Unique?
Or because I’m weak?
My outlook bleak, I’m unsure of what’s next
I take a small step, timid and vexed
And they stare
No they glare

The world fades as their pupils burn through me
Greyness engulfs my world and it is all I see
Why does it matter? What’s the point?
When all I do is disappoint
No longer obsessed with my passions
Too much stress, not enough ration
Spiralling too fast, I think I’m crashing
Abandoned by the world, the loner dies lonely
My sickness is my core, someone hold me
I can’t keep trudging, I don’t care
I don’t want anyone anymore, there
I’m alone, I always will be
That is all I can see, as endless as the sea, I’m free
I’m not hidden, I’m free, this is the only way to be
Lowly and homely, stranger to love, knowing hatred only
And they ask, “are you okay?”
Why gloat? Why taunt me?
These words float and haunt me
For the only answer is “Yes”
They hate you if you say the rest
They despise your honesty
They chastise your modesty
And they stare
No they glare

Ha... Ha!
Yeah, okay, hate me, hate me!
I stopped caring, it doesn’t affect me
You sick of me? Try to afflict me
End me, I dare you,
Because all you can do is stand and brude
A skewed view, scared of this coup
Of this divinity that you can’t get to
You misconstrue this breakthrough
I don’t hate you, I won’t hurt you
I’m not a monster, I withdrew
You win, so don’t get mad because I won’t play
Because I won’t stay for you to hate
I won’t sit and take the abuse
I’ll move on and be of use
So in truth, you lose
And so the pain
It stays a stain
But I move on
I keep on
Go ahead,
Stare, no glare!
I delve deep into darkness
And it still harkens
but I don’t need it
And your hatred
I don’t need it