What I never meant to be

I barely knew you from the start,
which for us was not that smart.
All I wanted to do is get to know you,
But you always decided not to.
I wish I could get through each day,
To not think about you is what I pray.
As I look in the mirror at my reflection,
I see myself going the wrong direction.
I have nothing left to say,
Yet I think of what it would be like everyday.
All you had to do was say no,
And now I just want to know:
If you will be there for me,
Or are you my worst enemy?