What I Live For

January 11, 2009
everything aches
I'm shaking
quaking with fear
and so needy
I'm searching within myself
through all those useless files
I'm coming up empty
and continue to toil
it's so meaningless
everything I do so selfish
what's going to happen if it stays this way
what's going to happen to me?
why do i feel emptiness
like never before?
why am i hanging on
when I just want to let go?
the strength in me is sapped away
like water flowing in a rapid river
I fall and collapse in a heap
I can't get up
I lie there for a while
wishing I could just die
cursing the day I was born
feeling so weary and worn
I heard footsteps and looked up
I saw the answer to my problems
you had always been there
it was my own fault
I gazed up at you
and pleaded with my eyes
you looked down at me with concern
you had never seemed so far and yet so near
you smiled kindly at me
and said "take my hand"
I thought to myself what I should do
and held out mine instead
the moment your skin touched mine
I felt everything return
it was not my own strength
it is yours
it's in me now
you pulled me to my feet
careful not to overwhelm me
and I realized something
my own power failed me, will always fail me
but yours never will
I'm ready
it's you I'll now live for
it's you I live for

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Kassy G. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 6, 2009 at 2:22 am
I really liked it...i love the way it leads into a romance, without all the sparks...it is a romance born from darkness...i really like it.
freedomfighter01 said...
Jul. 6, 2009 at 1:48 am
amazing! i love the words u used, it brought it all together, wonderful!
totalbookworm96 said...
Jul. 6, 2009 at 1:01 am
your story really moved me, lately i've been really struggling with my faith, and something about your poem just really helped me.....great job, and thanks!!!
*AngelofDeath* said...
Jul. 6, 2009 at 12:48 am
This poem you wrote is awesome,i can feel the pain in it i can't even tell the way i think of it!!!!!! =]
project827 said...
Jul. 5, 2009 at 7:31 pm
love it! i really dont have much else to say. keep writing, i love your stuff.
KICK3593 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
May 15, 2009 at 10:55 pm
Ah yes, a poem about adolescent depression, suicide, revelation, and inspiration.
There are some interesting lines here that shows some creativity and attempt universality, but the main problem with your poem is taking the two extremes--freeze and break, and warmth and movement--and moving them both to blandness with a lack of description and suddenly making an unwarned charge to the other side.
I would appreciate it if you could make a second/third verse of the companion's poin... (more »)
Ashley S. said...
Apr. 3, 2009 at 11:54 pm
I liked your poem. I also wrote a poem about who we should live/work for.
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