shivers
seem to rule me
as if i can't control myself
and i dont like it

never have i been so unstable
yet so sturdy at the same time

my feet seem to be locked in place
and my body is moving at its regular pace

but my mind,
well its so unaware of what's around me
i can't even get a thought going

and i am not moping
or even crying
or feeling at all

i am just there
shivering with a blank stare
completely unaware
that i am not myself

and i know that
if i even began to realize
what i have become
whatever daze i am in now
will soon end

and i am not ready for that
i can't handle that...