In the shadow of a lie

Ive been away for awhile now
awawy from the life that was mine
now im stuck here
in my own lil pretend world
a world of lying to myself and all others
this half world
with all its truths but mostly lies
hiding in all the shame
shame of the past
shame of my own self
you think im somthing im not
and thats just not hot
but onne day ill come out
out of the shadows of this darkness
of all my lies and shame
and tell you the truth
as much as it will hurt you
all i can say is im sorry
and hope
hope that you wont be to hurt
or what im about to say