i don't understand....

January/6/2009

I dont understand....

I don’t understand…
Why doesn’t she love me?
What did I do to deserve this?
Was I really that bad of a person for her to hate me?
For her to lie to me over, and over again?
Is it the way I look that reminds her of my dad?
The things I do?
Whatever it is ill change… just to feel her hold me like she did when I was little.
What’s wrong with me?
Is it my hair?
I don’t understand?
I’ve tried just about everything I can think of?
Why won’t she call me back?
Is Friends or even my boyfriend?
I feel like my relationship with her is a lie…
She so stupid how don’t you love your child?
Your own flesh and blood?
The first person I saw on this earth.
I couldn’t have been that bad….
I just don’t understand……