December 30, 2008
By Emily Cunningham, Long Beach, CA

I need to go back and stop
Look for who I was
The girl I lost in this mess
The conundrum's left me reeling
Hand me the pieces
I better start feeling
Hopefully I won't cut myself
On one particularly sharp
I'll start with the border
A piece of my arm
A fragment of hair
I start to see my fingers
I try to flex
It's not there yet
I make a note to myself
"Find the strength piece"
My eyes begin to blink
I'm seeing my shape
My outline
It takes my breathe away
Exquisite form
How had I missed this?
I can see me smiling back
Anxiously waiting
I'm nearing the torso
Pieces fit faster now
Seeming like magnets
Holes in me began to fill
My legs feel strong
I'd found the strength piece
I revel in my lower body
Something’s wrong
I'm out
No more pieces
Where's my heart?
A hole remains in it's place
This precious part
You lost it
I stare in disbelief
So close
This fragile innocent
Creature of purity
Missing a connection
The one connection to life
Hopeless tears
I attempt to fill it
My tries are futile
I'm left to wander
Without a host
Find my heart
Fix me
I want to be who I was
I know her now
I just need a rope
A lifeline
A crucial piece
To my afterlife

The author's comments:
Like a lot of poetry is, this was inspired by a really hard breakup that I went through. However, it's about trying to put on the big girl panties and get it together. It's about finding that person you were and finding the strength inside yourself.

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This article has 10 comments.

Mom said...
on Jan. 26 2009 at 5:17 am
Love you! Loved it! You make my heart hurt. :)

katie said...
on Jan. 18 2009 at 6:56 pm

i never knew you liked writing!

on Jan. 14 2009 at 7:19 am
here. emily. i love you. and i loved this poem so much that it actually made me cry. i know where you are girl. i still don't have all of mine back yet. it'll come back...it just takes time. .

OnionHead said...
on Jan. 12 2009 at 9:47 pm
As instructed.

Grampa said...
on Jan. 12 2009 at 7:10 pm
Strong and rich! Your emotions seep through these lines!

jessica said...
on Jan. 11 2009 at 12:26 am
I loved it.

feeline said...
on Jan. 11 2009 at 12:24 am
What a great poem. The feelings were real and vivid.

jayeyekay said...
on Jan. 10 2009 at 5:49 am
mmhmm. nice one E.C. =]

OnionHead said...
on Jan. 10 2009 at 1:04 am
I liked it. Not often do you find conundrum in a poem.

catherinemae said...
on Jan. 10 2009 at 1:03 am
i greatly enjoyed reading this poem!

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