It hurts to much, but because it has been a part of me for so long i can't seem to let go of it. It has always been there, festering inside me. The pressure building up, pleading to be let out. It feels never ending and as soon as i try to let some out more fills its place; like a soup can dispenser. On the outside it looks like I am in control but on the inside I am screaming. No matter what i do, the tears will just fall down. Everything used to be trapped beneath my skin never being exposed. Now no matter how hard I try or how many times I count to ten or hold my breath my true feelings show through. Not through my tears but through my eyes. My true friends will never be fooled because my eyes reveal the inner feelings of the soul. My eyes can never deceive, look closely and you will always know how I feel, whether I want you to or not.
My eyes cannot decieve
December 17, 2008