The Final Rejection

I take a plastic bag and a knife
I cut my wrists to release pain and to end my life
I fall to the holy shrine and Say my final prayers
I hope suicide is something I won’t regret later

I place the plastic bag over my head
Praying and hoping that soon I’ll be dead
I start to choke and suffocate
I see an expanding light figure shutting a gate

Wait it’s Jesus! It’s my savior!
He sighs sorrowfully and now I regret my behavior
Wait I didn’t write a will!
I want to back to fulfill
My lord’s will!

I appear at my funeral
I ask people as they walk by, “Where am I?”
I turn to Jesus, “ Did I die”?
Jesus nods and no one answers
Jesus leads me over to my father
Father I just wanted to die
Mother, please don’t cry!

They start to play Ave Maria
I’m in the casket unable to move
No one is here to comfort me
The light I just didn’t see
Where am I going? Where am I going?
Jesus sheds a tear
Then the devil appears

Here comes my worst fear
He grabs my hand to take me to his land
I wave goodbye
Jesus doesn’t see
Please someone anyone take me home
Why did I choose to die?
I know I’m being taken to hell
WHY?
Does anyone love me?
I now don’t want to die
He leads me to my grave
He yells “ Deal with it and be brave”
I fall to my knees
And hope my pain will seize
Mother will you come with me?
Father will you remember me?
I am your daughter
Who hid my depression
Now I wish I could have fought
With much more aggression
This now ends my final rejection