I get home greet my parents
"how was you day" mother asks
"fine" i respond
I move to the upstairs
shut my door
put my head phones in
music plays as i go over my last couple of days
the bullies i face show that im a discrace
the pain i deal with eazes out
the stress put on me for graduation
the pain i feel from all my life comming into one
i ball i ball so hard my eyes dry as the Sahara desert
my heart thumps so loud it could cause an earth quake
i pull my head phones out still balling
i move to my bathroom
parents see me crying
i shut the door and lock it
i start the bath
i look in my mirror what do i see?
a face traped in a helpless un-important body
a waste of skin and air
i open the mirror for some anti-depressents
i find a razor and stare at it for a while
i pick it up and begin to cry again
i place the blade on my four-arm
i slide it down my arm
so smoothe all the pain releases
i go to the bathtub begin cutting more this time deeper
a voice comes from behind the bathroom door
"whats wrong?" "leave me alone!" "they call my name
i do not answer
the door begins to be opened
locks sound nobs click
slaming begins
the crying greatens
the slaming continues
this time louder
my body starts to become weaker
i keep cutting deeper, deeper
the water dyed red
i smile i know i am free now
all the pain i feel everyday of my life
begins to creep by i cutter more
the door slams even louder
my name is called 2 times this time crying breaks from the outside
again they call my name
it hurts to know that my friends did this to me
again the pin sneaks by i cut and more i begin to bleed
the light becomes brighter
the sound starts to fade away all my pain released
i am awoke by the broken down door
i stare at the wall
my vision blurs
i wake up in a suit
staring at a funeral, mine
a voice calls my name and asks if im ok i look and respond fine.