Nothing is Helping

December 2, 2008
By Basma Shaham, Fairfield, CT

What’s going on?
I’m missing something, I know I am.
Too stressed to find out what I’m forgetting.
So many things exploding in my mind.

I can’t focus on one thing.
Religious education,
I can’t explain it.

I want to rip my hair out of my head.
I can’t steady the pace of my breathing,
My heart is pumping too fast.
My emotions are revealing themselves.
I want to take something in my bare hands and throw it at a wall.

Nothing is helping.
I go to sleep too late and wake up too early.
My classes bore me to sleep.
I can’t keep my head straight.
I’m beginning to fall apart.
When I thing something is going right, instantly, insanely it goes wrong.
I’m starting to forget where everything goes, where everything belongs.

My loving mother is trying to support me but that makes me even more stressed because it’s not falling into position.
My Saturday isn’t even relaxing.
I am always somewhere that makes me go back into my mind and ask myself, am I forgetting something?

It’s a nightmare.
Something so unbelievable.
Something so scary you will scream till there’s no breath left inside of you.
So frightening that your soul will want to leave your body for good.
Two phrases, six letters of pure agony...

my life.

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This article has 4 comments.

DAD said...
on Dec. 13 2008 at 11:40 pm
thats a wonderful poem and very heart touching I love u baba things will get better i promise UR THE BEST BASMA

maremare3566 said...
on Dec. 12 2008 at 1:58 am
hey basma!!love the poem. its awesome!!

jasmine said...
on Dec. 11 2008 at 2:54 am
it is a wonderfull poem keep up the good work. i am so proed of you.

dsokareh122 said...
on Dec. 11 2008 at 12:08 am
i luv this ur awsome its such a good poem but i thought it was bout ur leg? u said u were writing bout ur broken leg!

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