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Chaos Theory This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This work has won the Teen Ink contest in its category.

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Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
So
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

This work has won the Teen Ink contest in its category. This piece won the January 2009 Teen Ink Poetry Contest.




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Angie.Hudak This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 18, 2011 at 12:27 pm:
Honestly, I teared up. This is beyond beautiful. I was truly moved by your writing.
 
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TotheSea said...
Jul. 18, 2011 at 10:16 am:
I love the "believe" part of this, at the end of some of the stanzas.  It really gives the piece something beautiful.
 
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Feathered_mortal This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 18, 2011 at 8:10 am:
This is really moving. Your writing is truly beautiful.
 
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Princess2011 said...
Jul. 10, 2011 at 12:39 am:
...its..very very very nice...:)
 
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hunnybuntwix said...
Jun. 26, 2011 at 6:35 pm:
it was amazing
 
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samiasaskia24 said...
Jun. 26, 2011 at 1:44 pm:
I want to tell you that this is a touching poem. It is deep in it's own particular way, and it blew my speech away for the moments that I read it.
 
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HannahT said...
Jun. 26, 2011 at 12:44 pm:
This is absolutely beautiful! It's so different and so unique. This piece is written quite well!!! Great job!
 
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Abby D. said...
Jun. 26, 2011 at 6:37 am:
My goodness. The beauty within this poem is unfathomable. I was speechless after the last line. Bravo!
 
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RiverSong said...
Jun. 22, 2011 at 9:24 pm:

I probably already commented on this one, I don't remember, but in case I didn't I have to say:

No, I can't say anything, I'm speechless.  It takes a really powerful poem to render me speechless, and you have done it.  Five stars!

 
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OneInParticular1017 said...
Jun. 21, 2011 at 6:21 pm:
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. That's all I can say.
 
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NattyPie said...
Jun. 15, 2011 at 11:23 pm:
This is brilliant. I love this poem.
 
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Shadowrider said...
Jun. 13, 2011 at 5:36 pm:
I don't know what to say other than great! But the beginning could use a little more flow
 
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...Life said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 11:01 pm:
i acttually didnt need to read this one right now. I remember it from the first time i  was on the site. it is fantastic!
 
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Shyzilla said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 10:16 pm:

all i can say is this is real..hot dang did i love it..i mean its so moving and honest..absolutely amzing

 

 
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JoPepper said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 4:56 pm:
This is so pretty!!!!! I don't think I breathed once when I read it(that's what it felt like) I love it..... It was so sad!!!! Can you please read some of my stuff.   I loved this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'((
 
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AnonymousOne said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 4:49 pm:
This. is. amazing. Its beautifully written and i love how you broke the stanzas up. Awesome!
 
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Jade888 said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 3:30 pm:
I don't completly understand this, but reading it is very capitivating, i like to write poetry, but one day i wish i can write with this much pashion
 
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WickedStarcatcher said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 11:39 am:

This is beautiful and awesome!!!!! :D I've never read anything like it and I <3 it!!!! :)

 

 
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K.M.S.Shear said...
Jun. 4, 2011 at 6:28 am:

very interesting

 

 
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Peace.Love.Music. said...
May 31, 2011 at 10:44 am:
This truly gives me shivers. There are very few poems or writing that can make me shiver, but this really hit home. Well done (: 
 
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