Chaos Theory This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This work has won the Teen Ink contest in its category.

November 14, 2008
Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

This work has won the Teen Ink contest in its category. This piece won the January 2009 Teen Ink Poetry Contest.

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latrel said...
May 21, 2012 at 12:57 pm
I love the puns they give it humor.this pome reminds me of an epic poem.
crushed_veneer said...
May 17, 2012 at 4:18 pm
wow... this is amazing. completely breathless right now, i love this poem so much. so well written and such great imagery created, i'm literally at a loss of words. completely perfect poem. completely. <3
HappySappy said...
Apr. 29, 2012 at 6:15 pm
Amazing descriptions. You have written a poem that is perfect.
Aoide replied...
Apr. 29, 2012 at 6:22 pm
This is one of the most beautiful poems I've ever read. I wish I could say more, but words just don't do something this perfect justice.
EllieWatts11 said...
Apr. 27, 2012 at 12:30 pm
this is so good
Lexie96 said...
Apr. 21, 2012 at 12:24 pm

I've posted before, but going back and rereading this I am just struck again by how taken I've become by these words. This is such a beautiful, yet tragic poem, if it is based from life I am very sorry, I know quite a few people who could benefit from reading this and I will be recommending it to all of them. Congradulations on winning the award in your category and on publication... you deserve it and much more! Keep writing, please.

Also, if anyone has the time to check out my short ... (more »)

WhatsYourStory said...
Apr. 19, 2012 at 1:44 pm
jellybean said...
Apr. 17, 2012 at 4:40 pm
wait is it true
KatsK This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 7, 2012 at 7:45 pm
Wait, is it true? Great either way. And how it describes how she changes her beliefs and appearances, and then the end-- seriously, that's great! The more i look at it . . . I'm seriously getting chills, and you have rendered me incoherent.
Brookealee said...
Mar. 26, 2012 at 10:48 pm
Such a thought-provoking perspective. A beautiful piece.
LilZo11 said...
Mar. 24, 2012 at 4:28 pm
carolyn says and then carolyn said at the end, im so sorry. you are an amazing writer, i was reduced to tears, so powerful, crazy amazing writing. it was beautifuly written and tragic
Tori W. said...
Mar. 20, 2012 at 9:03 am
BT1718 said...
Mar. 16, 2012 at 7:31 pm
amazing wow that was realy good
dreamshaker This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 16, 2012 at 3:23 pm
This is perfection.
That's all I can say.
emmpps16 said...
Mar. 16, 2012 at 10:40 am
That was... beautiful...  but at the same time mind-blowing in a way.
Michaela M. said...
Feb. 6, 2012 at 3:13 am
"raindance72 said... Dec. 2, 2011 at 9:02 pm: I've already commented but I read this through again and I'm just blown away by it. So beautiful, powerful, haunting....there isn't a rating high enough for this poem." you said the words right out of my mouth this is amazing i hope to hear one of your pomes again
Doves_and_Ravens said...
Feb. 1, 2012 at 3:48 pm
Perfect. Need I say more?
HaleyLynn said...
Feb. 1, 2012 at 3:35 pm
Extraordinary beautiful!
NoaBecker said...
Feb. 1, 2012 at 1:56 pm
Is it about someone you know in real life? Has she read this?
JackieLoveJoy said...
Jan. 18, 2012 at 2:17 pm
Its all wrapped up with many beliefs. I love it....
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