Standing within a circle full of people I see none. They are there watching,waiting for me to get done. They are listening observing all that they see. They do not speak,but I can feel their eyes saying "Please don't forget about me". I am afraid of people whose eyes is all I see. I escape the circle to leave them be. They say once you leave there is no turning back. I turned my back on my family,my pack. A decision I made that I will forever live to regret. I did not expect what was about to happen yet. As I look back, what stings the most is the tears coming out of their eyes. The disappointment as I walk away leaving them without any goodbyes. Or maybe it is because I left them there without caring where they would be. Or maybe it is because I'm alive and they are dying without me.
November 3, 2008