I Am Not Alive

October 26, 2008
By Marisa Bletso, Annandale, VA

Drifting into the background
Until the black is all around
I am alone and will cry
Hope soon I'll just die
Cut myself when no one is here
Hoping people won't see what I fear
Reaching out for the first time
Hope I won't be knocked down one more time
They don't understand
I know they won't always be around
Hurting so much I can't even cry
Hope this pain will die
Cut myself to feel alive
Even when I feel so numb
Even if I am being dumb
Is this really me?
Do you see what I see?
This girl is she alive?
That girl... who is me
Am I alive?
I am not dead...
But I am not alive

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This article has 3 comments.

poetrylover said...
on Nov. 8 2008 at 7:43 pm
OMG I LUVED IT!!! i am going through EXACTLY what ur poem is expressing...this poem makes you think, and is so greatly exressed and goes along sooo soomthly... check out my poems on here and tell me what you think: TeenInk.com/raw/Poetry/article/60970/The-Real-Me/ TeenInk.com/raw/Poetry/article/56247/You-and-me/ TeenInk.com/raw/Poetry/article/56244/Too-Late/

abby3395 said...
on Nov. 4 2008 at 2:10 pm
I like the ending. It brings every thought together so that in case they seem like random feelings it clears up any confusions. In this sentence: "They don't understand I know they won't always be around" It sounds like you are stating random sentences looking for what to say next. Maybe this would have been better: "They don't understand, but they won't always be around". It connects the sentences to make one full thought so that it sounds real. Other than that it was awesome and I hope you win!!

Cam said...
on Nov. 4 2008 at 3:19 am
Hey. Well done. This helps me at least glimpse a little of what you're feeling. Thanks for the insight. :)


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