October 19, 2008
By Caitlin Carpenter, Van Buren, ME

I didn’t cry when you said, “I love you”
But I almost wish I did
I wouldn’t cry if you said, “I hate you”
I heard it as a kid
I’ll only cry if you say, ”I’m sorry”
Even though you didn’t do it
That’s the only time I worry
That tears will flow from a bottomless pit
I know it’s not your fault
I know that I’m to blame
I try to keep my tears locked in a vault
For when I cry, I always fill with shame
I know that I was wrong
And that you were right
But I can’t be strong
When I would rather just take flight
I know I should apologize
And you know that I can’t
So I look up to open skies
And hear that familiar chant
You were the first to say, “I love you”
When I just couldn’t say it back
It made us both so blue
But I was far from the beaten track
I always say, “I hate you”
Why, I cannot answer
But we both know it isn’t true
I’m just malignant like a cancer
My love is best un-given
But it belongs to you
I hope I am forgiven
Because I truly do love you

The author's comments:
This piece was hard for me to write because it is about my best friend. I am bipolar and this was right after the first time that I exploded on him. He is my angel because even after all the stuff I've put him through, he still loves me.

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on Sep. 15 2009 at 6:07 pm
really amazing. Great writing ;)

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