I want the salvation I can't get.
If not in this life then why in the next?
They tell me to get my head out of the clouds.
They tell me I need to wake up to reality.
But I'd rather fall asleep and die.
There's nothing here worth living to me.
I might commit suicide from loneliness.
But I'm not dead yet.
I'm patient and I can wait.
They hurt me and I'll hurt them too.
They deserve what they get.
They don't let me live my life the way I want to.
They ask what's wrong with me.
"Why are you so different?"
"It's none of your business."
They need to learn to leave me alone and let me be.
The only thing I want from life is answers.
I ask the questions but the answers I'll never find.
I'm willing to stop everything I'm doing and take some time.
I'm going to hope for the future,
Ignore the present,
And I'm going to leave my past behind.
I want salvation and I want answers.
How long is this search going to take?
Maybe I should learn how to love and forget how to hate?
I just need help.
I can't do it on my own.
I turn my thoughts into poetry and song.
I hope that way maybe I'll belong...