I’m in love with you but I never wanted to.
You stole my heart but you can’t even see.
Just how much you affect me.
You’re blinded by the lies and the mask I wear.
Because you don’t see there is a wall in between you and me.
I love you so much it just causes more agony then anything.
“But you’re my friend” is all I ever hear you say.
For that all you want to see when it’s you and me.
Who thought a word meant to show bond and love.
Would cause more pain than anything.
But you’re in denial.
You will take my small sad smile.
You just don’t want it to be this way.
You want to escape reality.
I have fallen hard and fast.
I just don’t see how I will be able to last.
My heart is just beating way to fast.
I know that you’re nowhere near healthy for my heart.
I love you way too much.
For this to be a simple crush.
You think it’s a phase.
It will pass and go.
If that’s what you want.
You say it’s what you need.
You’re in love with them not me.
You love me but your type of love is not the one I want.
But my love is not the one you need.
But it’s okay
I swear its fine.
I love you way more then you suspect.
For you go above my well being.
I can take this pain, endure the rain, and push my feelings away.
The only pain I cannot endure is the one on your face.
If I should tell you how I feel.
I just don’t think I could deal.
So I will take the fall and lose to love once and for all.
Because can’t you see you always had me.
But it’s time for your reality.
I guess it just time to see.
A friend is all I will ever be