Crushing On Pain

August 28, 2008
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I can’t believe I’m falling for you
Like I have no common sense
I never thought that once again at the sight of you
I get tense

But, hey, go ahead
There’ s no point in trying to pretend like you don’t like her
She’s one of my best friends for life
But I’m still the one who ended up getting hurt

Should I have said something?
Should I have told you what was going in inside of my head?
Should I have ignored everything?
Now I feel numb inside, almost dead

I pretend I’m all right
Like I’m fine
But nothing has been cheering me up even when my friend’s try
But you can’t recognize the signs

I fake a smile, a laugh
So you don’t see me cry, so you don’t see me broken free
But I feel so upset but you can’t hear my screams
Because everything has collapsed- collapsed here in my lap

You don’t look in between the lines
Where the color fades from grey
It doesn’t matter what you do now
It’s what you didn’t do; it’s what you didn’t say

Someone said a broken heart
Could fix its self and make you stronger
I love you, but I hate you
But I still want you to stay here a little while longer

It’s not fair, it’s not right
Nothing could ever be all right
Where’s her dignity?
You can’t get that automatically
I wish you could tell me what to do
Tell me what to say
If you knew the truth
Would you be okay?

I’d cover everything up to see you smile
If you knew you would walk away
So I’ll keep my thoughts and feelings to myself
Because I won’t let you walk away

And I would keep it all a secret forever
If that made you happy
I don’t want to see you get hurt
She is lucky

I’d cover everything up to see you smile
If you knew, you would walk away
So I’ll keep my thoughts and my feelings to myself
Because I won’t let you walk away

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Milo! said...
Mar. 11, 2010 at 3:38 pm
I really love this. I really like how everyone can relate to this. I hope you keep writing, because this is great. You should check out some of my stuff. I think you would like it.
amanda727 replied...
Mar. 11, 2010 at 5:49 pm
Thank you! I"m glad you like it! And sure, I will!
thatgirl_93 said...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 10:29 am
OH....EMM....GEES.... This is so good. I can really relate to this. I just experienced a situatin similar to what you've described.
amanda727 replied...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 10:48 am
thanks! :) yeah, this was a hard situation but I think it's happened to so many's hard to keep going but I've learned that everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
twilight97 said...
Nov. 3, 2008 at 5:31 pm
one of the best poems ive ever read!!!! and this is the story of so many gurls!!!! truly beautiful, amanda!
ashleyt said...
Aug. 31, 2008 at 12:11 am
AMANDA....thanks! This has helped me...I felt like I was the only person who understood what I was feeling, I thought I was crazy for a few days! This was really inspiring...thank you! You're really talented
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