Unwanted Evil Lies in my Soul

July 24, 2008
By Taylor ragano, Centreville, VA

I cant take this no longer I must be set free
run away from your problems this cannot be me;
Cant even look myself in the eye
wait who am I?

My mind draws a blank I cant answer this question,
I look deep into my soul pay close attention;
Pity and sorrow is all I have left,
I seem to have lost all good and only evil I kept.

Its pitch black with a whole in my heart,
that is why my life has fallen apart;
I have no love to receive or give,
this hatred inside of me must not live.

I must put an end to such hate,
I have to change I can no longer wait;
We all make mistakes I realize that now
I want to be happy but I don't know how.

You know how but it wont be easy for it lies deep inside of you,
start by doing good and work hard for what I am writing is true;
It is way easier to feel sorry for yourself and say life's not fair,
but as you can tell that has gotten you no where.
To actually work hard is difficult and boring,
but the long term end result I assure you will be most rewarding;

I look into my eyes again but this time I see a spark,
my heart is starting to fill with love but it has left a mark;
I will not forget my sorrow and pain,
it has made me stronger that is what I have gained.


The author's comments:
Well what inspired me to write my poem was when i realized i had to change i was on a rocky path of rebellion and not following the rules. I would do bad stuff and not care what happened to me or any one else afterwards then i relized i was numb i had no emotions left in me other than hate and anger. I couldnt even cry any more as much as i wanted to and i did all of this cause i did like who i was and wanted to be accpeted by society by fitting in and acting "cool" but i was just making myself worse. I not only hurt myself but my family and i lost several great opportunitys and dreams of mine due to peer pressure. Know all i can tell other kids going through the same thing that it is never too late to stop what you are doing leading this destructive path though u may think it cant get worse than this it can be way worse. Its hard and its a lot easier to just give up and be bad it hard to be good. For me i had to experience being bad for myself i used to question myself why be good whats the benefit its so easy to be bad and you get what you want. some poeple need to experience iit for themselves but its only the instant gradification that is good it is never long term and thats what you want in life. Its not worth it just be yourself as hard as that sounds you will be suprised how easy it is if you just try.

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ep500er said...
on Aug. 17 2008 at 4:53 pm
I thought this was amazing. I can totally relate to everything you have written. I went through some rough times hurting myself but I know that if you want to change you can.

GretelGirl said...
on Aug. 16 2008 at 10:15 pm
Bad grammar, but very inspiring author.


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