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Message From God

July 16, 2012
By Anonymous

Its been over a year but the pain doesnt leave
I really wish that she'd stayed with me
But if she hadnt left, I wouldnt have met you
And meeting you was a dream come true

I was hesitant at first, but soon began to trust
I told you everything, the things I hated and things I loved
After all I'd been through since that February
It seemed pretty hopeless that I could be happy

But you had this way of saying things
I felt so calm with you around me
You walked me home, because you knew I was scared
I felt so much safer with you there

Now here we are, ten months later
I'm dealing with so much, and it's difficult to stay here
I feel like you dont want me around
Thats why when youre next to me I stare at the ground

Your friends dont like me, and you just want to smoke
I feel like youre ditching me and that our friendship broke
Were different now than we used to be
And I wish that we could go back

I miss you, I miss me, the old us, when I was happy
Is it too much to ask for you text or call me?
My grandpa is dying, of not one but two things
I cant go on without support, so I make myself bleed

Youre my best friend, no matter what you think of me
I wouldnt be here today if it wasnt for you and your simple "hey"
I love you so much that it hurts sometimes
But I gather my thoughts and move them aside

It doesnt really matter anymore that you dont love me the same way
Because I know youre by my side right now and I hope that you will stay
Next to you, is where I belong
I feel it in my heart, its a message from God


The author's comments:
I wrote this about my two best friends. One committed suicide, a little over a year ago. The other has helped me recover from the grief and depression I was feeling afterwards.

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