50 tears i almost cried

July 3, 2008
By brittni jenson, Leominster, MA

i lost you to another. i lost my life to a relative. i lost my friends. i lost everything i once cherished. i even lost my one true love. i thought about cutting. but i promised i'd stop. i chose not to cry. it shows weakness. at least cutting shows you're not afraid of physical pain. unlike some people, i haven't lost my self control. i almost cried. ALMOST. but after crying all those times over the man once my "dad", i'm done. i took a vow of silence and swore to never speak of my emotions. i wish i had none at all. then i wouldn't have to worry about my heart getting broken again. every one has abandoned me one way or another. i have nothing left. the day my life ended was the day there were 50 tears i almost cried...

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This article has 4 comments.

bebe said...
on Dec. 8 2011 at 11:22 am
i know how u feel i cut so that i can cry and to know that i'm alive

bebe said...
on Dec. 2 2011 at 11:27 am
i know how u feel my friend and me use 2 do it and know we cant stop it not sereous but it is like were adicted to the pain.

on Jan. 11 2011 at 9:55 pm
I have cut my self before, more than once. I am not ashamed of it, why should i be when I can be brave and share my experience and show people it isn't the right way to go. I was so depressed, i felt like nobody liked me and no guy would ever love me. I only felt loved when i got home to my family. I went out in the woods and got some glass and cut all up and down my arms, my aunt done the same thing when she was 21. I am not ashamed of it, but i will never do it again. By the way, your story was really touching, and inspirational, and i also hope i helped you.

on Nov. 3 2010 at 8:02 pm
wind.and.rain.again BRONZE, Amherst, Massachusetts
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