A Selfish Decision

December 8, 2011
By , Brandon, FL
It was a dark and dreary day.
The day I went away,
To simple nonexistence.
The sudden ending to my game.

All were wearing black.
I couldn't understand why.
My mother's blue eyes sparkled
As tears fell from her eyes.

My father stood and stares
At the box that carries his little girl.
He wonders what he did wrong,
For me to end my world.

He holds my little sister.
She's at such a tender age.
She's crying uncontrollably,
For the end of my days.

My brother stands alone,
staring blankly at the hole,
that will soon cover his sister.
It will be my body's new home.

I watch the girls stand by,
With their mourning,
But questioning stares.
They want to know the answers,
Why I wasn't there.

Why so many secrets were said,
But this line was never read.
What did they do to deserve this?
Why was their best friend dead?

As I turned to the side,
I saw him standing by the tree.
He watched in morbid silence,
At the group who mourned me.

He didn't cry or mumble.
He just watched where his girl lay.
And wonders in deafening silence,
Why I wanted to go away.

Now I regret my decision.
I wish it wasn't too late.
I realize they did love me.
But, now I'm falling into the lake.

The end of my existence,
To every thing I could be.
I ended my life because of selfishness,
All because I hated me.

Now for my selfish decision,
I must pay the cost.
And burn away in hell,
Dying forever with the lost.

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hippiechick99 said...
Apr. 12, 2012 at 1:20 pm
This poem is the sad truth that happens to a lot of teens after suicide. I loved this poem, the imagry was incredible and I could feel what you were thinking as i read this.
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