Trying to move on..

I used to cut to feel the pain, but now all that's left is regret and shame. I cry because I'm the one to blame, I used to have it all but I gave it away for one little call. Just to hear your voice again. You stole my heart from me, and I really don't want it back. The one for you is all I want to be. I wish I could go back in time. I wish it was all a tape and all I have to do is press rewind. but this is life, it's reality. It sucks, it hurts, and just plain crappy. Sometimes we win, but sometimes we fall. Sometimes I run, and sometimes I crawl. I can't decide my future nor can I decide my fate. When I finally come around, I fear I'll be too late. Maybe it's just the thoughts that process through my head. I love you where the last words you said. I wonder about these words..and what they really mean..