A total knife in the back, a slap across the face, a punch in the gut, that's how it hit me. Could it have been more horrible then how I found out? Why couldn't have been different? I fill empty inside like there's no escape. My world was just flipped upside down, I'm in a daze did this really just happen, and now my head is pounding to its uncomfortable beat. If I don't stay in-tune my brain will explode, with every stroke of the brush the tune gets more and more out of whack. God is this a dream, or a nightmare either way please wake me!