I crave love, yet i am surrounded by it.
Each day my desire for that heart throbbing romance increases.
For the only reason i am drawn to you is because i have an endless pit that no one can seem to fill.
I walk step by step in my mothers shoes.
I have recreated her monstrous path, for that is all i know.
You may wonder why i can not see the truth. However i see the truth clear as day.
But no matter how many talks are given to me, or how much advice is shoved down my throat i always come back to falling for that type.
The type that uses me and then throws me away.
the type that doesn't see me for me.
I always wander back to those who hurt me.
I know exactly when it is coming and i predict how it ends.
i feel stupid each day as i look in to their face and remember the very voices who were once addicted to my easy exterior.
The softness of their touch pierced through me and the idea that it will all work out.
It hurts so much to know that i am the cause of my own destruction.