You get that look in your eyes and then you angle your lips to form the saddest shape i've ever seen and it's things like that which cause me to go to bed at night feeling like the bad guy. Your eyes start to droop down and suddenly all of this guilt rushes towards me and it takes all the energy I have to resist touching you. I always give in and tell you it's okay because i've never seen anyone look that sad, but today I didn't. Today I layed next to you as you held my limp hand and I wanted to turn around and smile at you and see your lips form the shape i'm used to, but I didn't. I didn't give in and now I feel horrible and sometimes I wish I wasn't so sensitive.
June 22, 2008